phase in their education, whether it be primary, high school or university, and step up to the new life ahead. I remember my graduations vaguely as I never put as much value into them. But now that I won’t be enjoying any graduation ceremonies anymore, I realized how important these ceremonies were. Graduation ceremonies helps us look back to how much we’ve accomplished over time and helps us look forward into the future, painting a picture of where we want ourselves to be.
Today, as the month of March ends, I look back on how much I’ve accomplished in the past 91 days and look forward into the future.I won’t deny that these past 3-months have been a roller coaster ride, which has its cloud nine highs and heart attack inducing dips.
There are days when I absolutely have no idea what to write, though I know that my creativity has managed to pull out some rabbits out of the writing hat. But those rabbits I’ve pulled out are not necessarily fluffy adorable balls of irresistible cuteness. I admit I’ve put out non-sensical posts, just for the sake of getting something up because I promised myself I would. And I do feel bad about those horrid posts. Being the neurotic person that I am, those feelings actually hound me day and night until I manage to cook up something better. Then again, how often do I create written works of art?
There are days when I have no drive to write anything at all, partly from physical and emotional exhaustion. I’ve learned that in writing I have poured out my heart and soul into the words and putting all those emotions onto “paper” (a.k.a. the word processor) can drain the life out of me.
There are days when I don’t have any photos and I have to create something visual. I can’t just put out words because people need images! I don’t even want to use other people’s photos anymore because I got into trouble with a famous blogger for posting his photos, even if I did properly link them and explicitly say that the photos were his. It was so not a pleasant experience, that’s all I can tell you. Sigh. This is on top of writing. Being a blogger is not as easy as it seems. Or am I just putting too much pressure on myself?
There are days when I ask myself: “What did I get myself into?” or “Why am I doing this?” or “Am I actually getting somewhere?” I honestly think, deep in my creative soul, that, slowly, I am getting somewhere. Am I? See? I can be crazy!
I know I’ve probably talked about this in some post, but I remind myself of where I want to be. I want to be a food writer…a real one.
So now that I’ve gotten into the groove of writing everyday, I need to hone my food writing craft. I graduate from the daily writing and move up to the next level of improving my food writing skills with the help of Diane Jacobs’ “Will Write for Food” I bought this book three or four years ago, started one or two chapters, but never finished.
And just like the feeling of starting high school and / or university, I am very nervous. Would I be able to give it the time that it needs? I can’t even get to finish the books and magazines that I’ve started reading a month ago! I don’t even know how I would be able to work on this book on top of the work that I have at the moment. Being a working housewife is quite tough, you know.
But looking back reminds me how much I can accomplish (besides 91 blog posts is not a piece of cake right?). So I proudly graduate from 2012’s first quarter and step up into 2012’s second quarter with a goal, a vision to better myself as a food writer and with the drive (though often dwindling but nevertheless still there) to achieve it.
Congratulations to me! And goodluck to me too!